A peek into my old posts.. and the changed perspective

Like the old Malay saying ... "Tempat jatuh lagi dikenang inikan pula tempat bermain" visiting this old page of mine really sent me down memory lane. Yelah, my last post was in 2013.. and as now, 2021 has nearly come to an end.

2021.. then ... 2022.. There's a reason kenapa orang sebut time flies, because it effing does.. Kalau kecik2 dulu kita bangun pagi, siap pegi sekolah, kat sekolah tu rasa macam panjang ya amat.. sekarang, bangun pagi, gi ofis.. tup-tup dah pukul 6 ptg..dan keje ko still belum siap. Perasaan wut the hell tu sangat tebal dalam diri, yela, bila keje belum siap maknanya sok ko kena ngadap la keje sama lagi. And it struck me,

Adulthood is all about routine.

The same turd

All the effing day

Everyday

But unlike masa kita teens, a time where we (well, majority of us mainly) have besties yang sama kepala, yang boleh ketawa dan nangis bersama.. adult friendship sangatlah gaban bezanya.. especially for ladies, sebab kita dah ada team2 berbeza, team dah kawin, team tak laku (read singles), team anak sikit, team anak ramai, team bekerjaya ala datins, team bekerjaya ala marhaen dan team suri rumah. It became tougher to talk sebab ketika ini, pemikiran dah x sama.. 

If you think secondary schools (yela, Msia mana panggil highschool kan) dah berpuak dan selective, masa adult lagi la... Sigh.. sayang kan, kita ingat dengan pengalaman dan pengetahuan yg semakin bertambah, makin la org tak melihat luaran.. Rupanya it gets worse bila older, I miss the days where people ada masa nak kenal org lain, tau perangai dia, kelebihan dia, the less pretty sides.. flaws. Di zaman semua ada filter, it seems friendships are solely based on the outer shell, (brands, riches, looks etc.) yg ditunjukkan di platform socmed. What a pity.. I miss sesi curhat, the moments yang kita tukar view on seseorang, sebab we finally learn their song.

If you have friends who stick with you through thick and thin.. cherish them. Coz in the time where everything is based on face value, you should hold close to those subtle heartbeats, the wide grin, the snorts in their laughter, the gentle pats on your back and the whispered prayers. Cheerio.